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Come on Chuthbert

in the very, very unlikely event I was ever to do anything criminal, I'd want you on my jury.

Well that depends on what you call a blip. I had beer on my summer hols most days. It was intentional and no problems. Felt in complete control, never felt ill, 3 or 4 max over an entire night. Was that a blip? Had the odd beer or wine other times too, no issue. But then I started 3 days with good intentions this Xmas and disaster. So aye, what J69, Gemmill etc says is right. Clearly I need complete sobriety. But that isn't easy. Cos I do like a drink when Im in control. Not so much when I'm not. And in 3 occasions now I have completely lost control which is actually scarey. But not drinking again ever makes me feel a bit down tbh. New Years eve will be very hard. January almost certainly guarantees depression for me, that's just a fact, although at least drink will not be a temptation. I've tried antidepressants with disastrous results, withdrawal was horrible. I've tried talking therapies and ended up much worse. The only thing that helps me is walking and listening to stuff. But I'm doing 20000 fucking steps a day now, wearing out my shoes and basically just dont have the time! I guess running is the next step but I don't like running much. And despite all I've said, honestly I think for me drink is the symptom not the cause (although obviously it's a bit of both), because not drinking doesn't cure me (but of course spares me this) It's just mental health at the end of the day isn't it? I know a lot of us struggle with this, I'm not alone. Hence why Im minded to share my thoughts.

@Renton Naturally, you’re beating yourself up because you’ve had a slip. Thinking about it another way though, it’s some fucking achievement to only have had two blips in the time you’ve been staying off it, I’d say. So many people can’t do it and end up utterly wrecked by it. You’re doing more than ok mate, give yourself a little slap on the wrist then don’t dwell on the negatives- it’s done. Your next period of sobriety starts here.

Update. Just had a amazing shit. Perfectly formed paper saver. Given the state of my guts this was some surprise I can tell you. Off to get the train to Edinburgh where we are seeing the botanical gardens light show. Will endeavour to stay out of bother, not easy in that city admittedly but will stick to cafes and restaurants. As AH said, new day, new start etc. My problems are minor in the grand scheme of things. So many people have it worse than me. Genuine thanks. New year resolution - go a full year without another post like these. 👍

Difficult to disagree. I know how it goes. Today was a tough day. I was in places people were drinking, knowing that just one drink would cure me- for now. Resisted the temptation, felt sick all day, could hardly eat. Tomorrow will be easier. Except I'm staying in Edinburgh which is the worst place possible for the peeve.Typical. I'll get through it though, by New year the cravings will start. Then they’ll go after 2 weeks and then the fucking boredom will kick in which is nearly as bad. Want to sink a couple with your mates? Just soft drinks for you lad. I don't fucking care that there is a great choice nowadays, I will miss the buzz. Its not the same but logically the alternative is clearly worse. Maybe not immediately but somewhere down the line my brain will explode and I'm back on here blabbing to you guys for support. And you have all been a great support, I mean it. I'm writing this as therapy for myself but also hope it may help people with their own demons. I think back on my life and that first time I drank to relieve a hangover was me fucked. No going back from that moment. Please don't do this. So I'm in bed early dosed up on omeprazole looking forward to feeling better tomorrow and the familiar battles ahead of me. Starting with insomnia and anxiety.I hate this time of year.

https://selfhelp.cntw.nhs.uk/self-help-guides/alcohol-and-you/print/353 Some links at the bottom of here for books/websites that might be helpful. None of it is revolutionary stuff, but sometimes it's helpful to see it written down

I've seen the ex-pros on motd say it wasn't a red, (it was), and I've seen Robbie Earle, Robbie Mustoe and Troy Deeney say it was deliberate. This slips business is total shite as his left foot does go over slightly but that's because he was trying to tread on Schar, the right is also factored to leave one in on him, it's clear as day to me. He's only unlucky that it gets spotted by the ref and the slow-mo doesn't show any obvious error by the ref. I swear to god, the amount of shit show decisions we've had against us which is totally forgotten about by the pundits as soon as the whistle goes but when it's the other way around it's the main topic of the match. What also irks me is them all saying it changed the game as if it was a close game up that point, sorry but that's utter shit.

He was in his local when he heard the news

Facu Cold Medina.

Reading the article on the BBC about who is on a free this summer... I think we should definitely go in for Amad Diallo, just for the lols and subsequent meltdown on Ready to Groom

I hope he has a good career, preferably overseas so it doesn't come back to bite, but selling him for what we got is possibly the most value he could ever give us.

https://www.nbcnews.com/tech/social-media/elon-musk-accused-censoring-laura-loomer-maga-republicans-x-rcna185569 Musk now censoring conservatives who disagree with him on immigration Free speech my left bollock, he's a fucking child and always, always has been. I really don't think he's hanging around long.

Alan Brazil's up in arms, but I suspect that's cos it's interfering with his beer money.

Rents, do you have access to medicinal marijuana in the UK? If so, have you considered it and/or spoke to someone as an alt to anti-depressants? From the years on here I'd consider you as an anxious person, and possibly you are self medicating to some degree with alcohol, no? Fuck, listen to me, sorry I'm no expert but you definitely should talk to someone who is interested in more than just giving you anti-depressants. Btw, we've spoken about auto immunes previously, one of the wacky symptoms I get when having a flair up, is really dark moods and agitation with everything. I'm kind of fortunate that I know alcohol makes it even worse but there was a time before I got a handle on it, that the numbness of a serious drink felt like a solution or at least dulled the bleakness, as the inflammation got worse the associated physical pain was too much and it was easier/necessary to give it away but there were plenty of times the craving for that numbness reared its head. The body is a complex and often fucked up thing.

There's always been an amusing contrast between right wingers' racist dislike of immigrants and businesses' love of imported labour. It's nice to see it played out.

Not if I take my rabbits foot, horseshoe and lucky white heather Kev 😒

I would have liked to see what he could have done for us. It was a pity we had to sell him, however, we had to and we made profit out of him being on our books for a year. It is hard to wish him well or wish him ill as he was never really a NUFC player. I was slightly excited to see what he would do for us but in reality not that excited. It is not like when someone like Carroll left or ASM. These things happen in football. Didn't Chelsea sell Salah and De Bruyne? I don't think he will hit either hight.

Not in the same league as rents but I've had a shit Christmas myself, the daughters got something from the pharmacy they work in which is meant to be good but after taking the full course it hasn't touched it, (I don't think it's got paracetamol, should've ignored them and got them to get cold and flu tablets I asked for, the coughing and fever kicked in last night, feel rough as fuck, just want to sort the place out but I've got as much energy as a siem de Jong shot. No doubt I'll be right as rain come the 2nd January when I'm due an interview in the morning, then back shift at work. I'm also worried my missus will get the flu. I forgot about getting back to the NHS for my flu vaccine.....

Solidarity Renton. You’re a good egg and shouldn’t beat yourself up too much. You’re a human being man, no one is perfect and we all fuck up from time to time. I’m wired in a similar way to you. I’ve got an addictive personality, I don’t know what an civilised drink means and I’m either all in or nothing. The relentless boozing/partying at this time of year tends to get me down too if I’m honest and I look forward to a period of abstinence/routine and structure in January.

Really? Again? He's not our winger. Move on, please.

Only reason they appealed must be for optics and their own internal club delusions that he didn't mean it because he said he didn't. This is possible now because there is no penalty for unsuccessful appeals. Just serves to make them seem bitter and deluded. Plus, does Lee Ryder have a side hustle running the AVFC x account? Anyway this has added a degree of humourous entertainment to the game.

Aye - Elon is blatantly only in this for popularity too, so it will absolutely be bothering him that he's losing ground there.

Keep talking Rents. We'll keep listening. We're all behind you. Take care of yourself.

I think an additional problem ManU will face (at least I hope so) is that the aura that has previously surrounded even their fringe players has disappeared. They have an assortment of old and young shit on inflated wages. As for Rashford, is Saudi the only option to sell him? Hopefully he rots there because ManU being unable to manufacture a way around PSR would see it changed almost overnight.

I think the unfortunate, uncomfortable truth is that genuine alcoholics can't just have the odd one or two and be in control of it. And if you set out to try and do that, then the inevitable outcome will sooner or later be another three or four day bender that started with the intention of just having one or two and being in control of it. Complete abstinence has to be the goal. Even that comes with no guarantees, but it's at least an acceptance of the reality of the situation. Apologies if I sound like a pontificating cunt, but there you go.

I came across a couple of interesting charts concerning the priorities of British people - this first one considers the ideologies that British people most associate themselves with. Which is IMO leaning towards being progressive. I am not seeing this 'small c conservative' trend in this data. Conservatism polls behind even Socialism here. This makes me think that the problem isn't that the country is right wing, it's that the country is confused, misinformed, and that individuals have personal insecurities which the right preys upon to manipulate them. I can't for the life of me see how to add an image to this post to actually share it but the link to the charts and data is here: https://yougov.co.uk/politics/articles/51086-which-political-ideologies-do-britons-have-a-positive-view-of The second interesting chart is how voters for particular political parties view each ideology. It's more or less what you'd expect (21% of conservatives oppose conservatism though) but does show the areas in which we've been particularly successful even on the right leaning parties. 35% of reform would self define as environmentalists. 30% as feminists. It's not a majority, but it's a significant minority. It just makes me think if we can get the messaging right, we can speak to people while addressing more of these concerns. The only thing this doesn't really tell us about is immigration which I reckon is distorting a lot of people into positions they might not otherwise take up. Would the 30% of reform voters who see themselves as feminists be in reform if immigration wasn't an issue?

I had a bad sleep and having read this post again it makes Lee Ryder's prose look like Oscar Wilde.

I'd also add that motd (well, lineker) got their knickers in a twist about Bruno the other week for a possible yellow he may have got but when something that is a red happens he's not that kind of kid patter comes out, they're such hypocrites at times.

Partey should be avoided like the plague the rapey cunt

I did this two hours ago. Players who ending contract un June. There are some like Son or Diallo who will renew because club has 1 year option and thera are others like Mendy or Anguissa that it's not clear if they renewed their contracts or no in the past.

Well this aged well.

Got to say no football today and no football on New Year’s Day is fuckin abysmal. Is this down to what Geoff fuckin Bezos wants?… Sky and TNT have gazumped the cunt for the foreseeable but I don’t hold out any hope that much will change. We should also be playing in the FA cup third round next Saturday, not the following one. Fuckin cunts. In fact cunts makes them out to be fuckin useful etc etc….

Should've got another game for wasting time appealing.

It depends on how many hotels Chelsea’s owner has left to financially engineer for yet another winger.

It would be, but I stand by my previous post that they have to find a buyer and he will need to take a massive pay drop.

Possibly. But we wouldn't have seen it this season. Howe trusts Murphy and the kid is raw as fuck so would be unlikely to have seen much game time at all. £30m for a lad that was a totally unknown quantity in the PL was good business for us.

Posts in the key of wykiki: The media darlings are being held 0-0 at home to Brentford. That's Lineker's weekend fucked.

@Renton We appreciate your openness about what you are going through. That is an important step in getting help as a lot of people are embarrassed, thinks it makes them feel less of a man, etc and therefore choose to not let their thoughts out. They don't understand that this is very detrimental to their mental well being and psyche. Before I started working in special education, I worked in a mental health hospital and our patients had an alcohol dependence or illicit substance dependence along with a mental disorder (I.e. Schizophrenia, Major Depression, etc) so I am quite familiar with how hard it is on a daily basis. Always irks me when people say, 'Stop feeling sorry for yourself and just quit, its not that hard' Or 'Never drink to begin with and then don't have to worry about becoming addicted and/or dependent'. Ah, if only it were that simple. I have never been dependent myself, but have a lot of family who have and again the aforementioned job related experience. Key will be my friend is for you to keep talking about it, talk to others who are going through the same thing, and do things that make you happy and understand you are worth more than your next drink if that makes sense. We all hope you can get better in 2025 and I know some good websites and resources you can use if want to DM me. Ryan

Who the fuck is this cunt?

'It was never a red like'

I guess I'm not fully committed to. complete abstinence yet. Sometimes I am fine. Most the time. On holidays somewhere hot I just have the odd beer and enjoy it, no problem.Normally I have nowt in the house and can have a couple of drinks with a meal, and that's it. It adds to my enjoyment But sometimes I just flip. Today I'm just hungover really, will stay off the drink without much bother. But in July I literally went on a bender for no reason, I lost 4 days out of my life and don't even know why. Can't remember it. And of course 2 years ago I ended up in hospital for a week I was so bad with it. Nearly died I was so fucked up. I know I need to stop. I don't want my kids seeing me like this. But sad as it sounds I don't have a lot of other pleasures in my life. I'm tempted just to say one day at a time. And I won't drink for a few weeks, maybe months. Then I'll be sensible. And then won't in time - in maybe 6 months or a year I self destruct and I'll hate myself. Anyway, cheers, writing this down has convinced me I need help.I can't pretend I can do this on my own anymore. I'm ill.

How much did it cost to secure the use of Robin Robin's home movie image rights

the ultimate banana skin. Everyone is expecting a comfortable nufc win including Man Utd fans so it won’t happen.