McFaul

Thanks for all your kind words. I've got a right hangover today, but I'm a lot calmer about it. I have a chance, I'm big, I'm positive and I've got all the support in the world from my friends and family. Thanks again for all your patter about this. Hopefully I'm still here irritating people LM style in 14 years time when I'm 50.

The Greek doctor said that I could live a lot of years but may not ever be without it. You're thinking "the caant wont ever see the poms with the world capp naaa". Like I say role on Tuesday.

Thanks Chez, I'll know more on Tuesday. I keep thinking what am I telling people this on forums for, I'll tell you why because I'm shitting myself and I want to hear of people who know anyone who's been through this. I know I need to stop worrying. Me dads had lung cancer for a long while now, he's only here because he dismisses it.

Thanks. I've been googling stats and came across one stat that suggests only 41% of men survive 5 years or more. I'm too young for this I'm 36, I've got my whole life ahead, I don't want to die as childish as it sounds, I've got far too much to live for. My lass hasn't stopped shaking all day, me mothers distraught, even me level headed sister is all over the place. If I've only got 5 years I might not even see an Ashley-less Newcastle again. Anyway thanks for the kind words, Tuesday really is D Day.

I'll write this on here because there's been enough people from here, either known or knew me personally. About four weeks ago, I collapsed in the bookies like a dead weight. It was day of the England v Costa Rica game. Got to the hospital where I regained consciousness and they didn't have a clue what was wrong with me after loads of tests. Had a brain scan and blood test on Monday and had one today, got dragged in to a spare room, and the result is I have a brain tumour. I don't know anything about it really till Tuesday they believe it's treatable, but I said could I be dead this time next year, they said yes but also you could live 30 years too. As you can imagine, and as I'm sure anyone would be I'm a nervous wreck. They believe it could well be malignant but aren't sure, I may need chemo, but they're not sure, I may need a brain op but they're not sure. Without doubt it's one of the worst days I've ever had, my lass was worse than me though she cried from the minute the specialist told us, and I was like it supposed to be yee that's strong for me man! Anyway, does anyone know of anyone with a brain tumour before, I genuinely don't, what happened, how long did they survive etc....

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The fat cunt could take it and build the club but he won't because his rule is "i never faakin do what peopuw teww me too.". That is him to a tee. Bullied at school. If the fans of NUFC implored him to spend fuck all on players for 5 years, he'd spending £100m a season on players, nature of the beast. Clearly suffering from events in his childhood imo.

Like shite! Funny enough she doesn't support my boycoutt and is still going to go. It's quite possible I've been to SJP for the last time in my entire life, I will not go back while that man is connected to the club in any way shape or form.

The Sun arselicked him 3 weeks ago too. Fucking arseholes. Don't buy The Sun.

Could do with a newun. Hardly been on it this year which is a shame.

I have it on good authority, 17% haven't renewed, including myself. There was 36,000 last season allegedly, which means there'll be about 6,000 of those missing. I'd imagine for the bigger games there'll be 46-48,000, and for the shit games 37-40,000. Not even overstating things that neither. I won't go back till he leaves or dies. That's a fact, over 600 games at the toon from 1985 to 2014 and I've been driven to this action. Hate him and hate all those who try to find a good word for him. Wanks.

I think we'll come 18th. We are basically shit, we have a shit owner, a shit manager, a shit squad, and a shit whingey support. We are just fucking shit! I for one have been to my last Newcastle game, baring in mind I've had a season ticket from 1991 to May 2014, I've jacked it and won't go back for years till they're all gone. I've never been more disillusioned with Newcastle than I am now, he could go on Man City style 5 year spending spree, feeling all generous, and I'd still be praying the fat bastard suffers an unrivalled death. HATE him. The club is dead to me. So we'll come 18th in my view, with an average gate of 41,000. It will be the lowest many of us have ever felt. Pardew will blame everything but himself, and still find positive words for "Mike". I think Chelsea win the league purely because of Mourinho, I just can't envisage him not improving them this season. Man City and Liverpool challenging all the way, and a vastly improved Man Utd. I hope Tottenham and Everton have a really shit season.

15st8 at the minute which is a good stone over my fighting weight. Been drinking like an alcoholic lately, and I'm only half exaggerating.

He's Scottish though. He'll sign for Celtic in a £1m deal within 2 years with Sporting cutting their losses, and get the Scottish Player of the Year award at some point, while being described as "wan o eh greatest players in eh werruld". This will happen.

Good lass. It's easy when you stop letting your mind telling you it's too much hard work.

cc: harrisr@bbc.co.uk ; pfgadd@wronguns.vn imo

Wronguns.

I seen him in the Corals on Hood Street last week. He put £1500 on a horse, and it won 8/11 so he can't be skint. The impression I got of him, and I had no opinion of him either way prior to this, was one that he is a charva of almost unparalleled levels. He struck me as thick as fuck, and he had this fat arselicker hanging on to his every word.

Those people are arseholes to a man, without much of a sex life and with very few friends. I can think of actual examples.

None of it imo. Even when we came 5th we stuttered through many games, one minute Carr is a genius the next he and Pardew are at each others throats over shit signings. It's a joke. We're made to feel small by our owners. We should be at least what Tottenham are, but when every week we as supporters are told to think small and expect small what is the point in our existence? Since he's owned the club he's more than doubled his personal wealth, yet still refuses to invest anything worthwhile in growing the club. It's an evil thing to say, but he's probably the only person I can think of, where if it said on SSN, BREAKING NEWS - MIKE ASHLEY DIES IN HORRIFIC ROAD ACCIDENT, I truthfully would cheer with all my heart, and I would repurchase the season ticket I've just dumped after over 20 years. Fat cunt.

Aye that's a good plan, but the worrying thing is I'm always doing something physical, football, gym, 70 mile bike rides, I'm not going to lie it's knocked me for six.

It was the 2002 World Cup on France. They didn't even score a goal, I ended up in hospital then too. That was the last time I was admitted, must be something about World Cup for me.

Aye I felt alright, I was texting mates arranging where we were watching the England game at 5pm.

https://twitter.com/leazeslad/status/481513617817604097/photo/1 Head all over the place.

Cheers kid. I'm leaving the drink alone for a while, but it can't have been that.