Renton

This. Can close the thread now, have a 2 week holiday, and get ready for the final stretch.

It was only half a shocking performance tbf. And Everton cheated like fuck the second half. Scored with one of only 2 of their real chances. I think transitioning to a side with possession from a counterattacking side caused us huge problems today. ASM is shit in a midfield trying to control the game. Them going down to 10 men exacerbated the problem. It wasn't a typical game for us and I am entirely confident we won't go down. However,.clearly us gaining points would have been better.

Erm, I'm pretty sure us getting more points would have been more helpful to aid against our (almost non existent) relegation prospects?

Aye, fair enough. I'm fucking pissed off with the results of the last 2 games and especially the manner of today's defeat. The run couldn't last forever but I think we’ve all got a bit of PTSD from Bruce. Also fucking annoying as we could have leap frogg3d Leicester into 12th today which would have been incredible.

Tena, pampers, or Huggies?

You got over confident like. In fact I blame you.

Irony. Looks like it's NUFC who may keep Everton up @Gemmill.

Take care mate. Be aware that even if you think you're doing okay, you might not be. Grief can hit you suddenly at any time I'm finding out. Take whatever help you can and listen to the wise bods on this board.

Some fantastic responses here. All of them really. I've never got anniversaries before. Its a year later, so what, the rock we live on happens to be in the same place as it was when x event happened,.big deal. But the mind is a strange thing and from absolutely nowhere I feel the lowest I have ever felt. I feel so much worse than a year ago, it's not even close. Want to blast my cerebrum with whisky and drugs. I'm not going to, obviously, i know that will fuck me up even more.Going to try and sleep, talk to the shrink tomorrow, and plot a map out of this hell I'm feeling currently. Genuine thanks to all your words and advice. This place is amazing, nearly 20 years it's been going now and although I've only met a few of you it feels like I know you all. Probably going to take a break for a bit but I'll be back soon I'm sure.

Cheers. Great to have you back btw. 👍

Yeah, I'm really wary of medicating myself Craig, mainly because I think I'm in the normal range of what I should be feeling. I'm also wary of counselling. I had a major issue 6 years back and got counselling, and can honestly say the first counsellor made me feel suicidal (and I fucking paid for it!). Blamed all my relationship problems on me which was pure bull shit. Sent me in to full blown nervous breakdown which ultimately cost me my job (as there was no chance of promotion after this). The second person I saw, a clinical psychologist, was just useless, but at least not damaging to me. But on reflection, I've never dealt with my mental issues and now the additional shit I've had to deal with, my sister and Dad dying, have just pushed me over the edge. Let's see what the new psychologist says.

It does help enormously me unloading here. I've always been one to push things to the back of my mind in RL, until I have a break down like today. I just miss my sister so much and will never get over not saying goodbye to her. I need to recognise this. Maybe my work psychologist will help, I don't know. My colleagues seem like genuinely nice people but I'm not sure how much I know them or can trust them. Too late now anyway, off to the work shrink I go. Also yet again proves that drink is not good for me. Got pissed for the time in ages yesterday, today I am suffering a major depressive episode. Not worth it.

There's no shame but at the same time I'm not sure crying during meetings is a good look. I've been referred for mandatory counselling. Oh fuck, I think I may need to look for another job.

Get well soon PL. My mum is still ill with it, although not seriously so. I don't think. Meanwhile it's the anniversary of the last time I saw my sister alive before she went to Cramlington and I never saw her again because they wouldn't let me visit because of covid. I'm utterly fucked mentally, I can't come to terms with it. Seeing the GP next week, will probably take MF's advice and get on the happy pills.

I'm okay with that personally. Wykiki has served us well and practically guided us ro safety. I insist he does the last match of the season though, in his honour.

Okay, we need to get over this. Howay against free fall Everton. Whilst I normally fucking hate @Gemmill being right, I'm fully with him on this now. Wykiki, do your stuff, but you're on a warning mind.

Hate them man. Dennis wise, John Terry, biggest cunts ever, not restricted to football. I was at the millennium semifinal when Poyet robbed us (don't actually mind him tbf). Similar outcome to today, although tbf we battered them. Getting the tube back to central London, the repeated voices saying "It's goals that count, innit?". Fucking cunts. But they're finished now, history. Fuck them.

I am going to refer lo Southampton as "home of the spitfire" from now on.

Good. I mean this in the best possible way. You're gutted because we lost 1-0 away to Chelsea, playing our B side, aided by a fucking corrupt referee, a travesty of a result. But this shows you how far we have come. And whilst we are on the up, they are facing oblivion.

Ahh fuck. Never mind.

Hold your horses here like. We're the new big boys in the town, Chelsea are going down...

Get ficked man, he was clearly off side. The officials are bent as fuck here.

Carragher knows the score tbf. [\wipes face]

Cheating bastards.

"The Pride of London". Get fucked you cunts. I actually hate you more than Tottenham. Yes, #cans kicking in, and I've got to do the kids homework afterwards.